Graduation Ball... Yea, indeed.

I know it can be worst.
I felt super lousy.

Felt that I shouldn't be there in the first place.
I wasn't really excited about this prom at all, unlike secondary grad night.
I did not even bothered to get clothes, did not go do my hair... whatever shit I did for secondary prom did not occur.
I thought of not going, cuz the table where my classmates were, were already full.

In the end, I decided to go as there are seats on my other friend's table.
I got the ticket partly because of her...
Person who 千交待，万交待 me to go, my partner for the day... Did not turn up, did not even bothered to notify me...
Now I ended up sitting down there, becoming a kind camera man for persons X, Y, Z who sees me sitting down there doing nothing.

For that moment, I felt that my existence was redundant.
At that moment, it really felt like if there is a hole, I would just sneak out from there.

Frankly speaking, I was already affected when my classmates did not manage to get me a seat on their table as they promised...
Then being "PS" by someone.
I am in a position of total awkwardness...
Towards then end, I was like alone sitting... dam sad... I donno what to do also...
Today, totally lousy...